Solitary
by Val Hamann
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It is a sad thing to watch a man go insane, because he cannot handle the pressure, the claustrophobia of the tiny box. It is even sadder when you see the man's spirit shaken from his soul.
Solitary confinement allows for no human contact.
Solitary confinement makes it difficult to tell one day from a thousand others
Solitary confinement is a prison within a prison.
Solitary confinement allows a man to be continually surrounded by misery.
Solitary loneliness is a slow, merciless, silent killer.
My name is Solitude.
My birth name is Richard.
I have formed myself a new identity parallel to my surroundings and circumstances. I am surrounded by many, yet I am completely alone. I am lonely and I hate myself for what I have done to myself.
My life is a never ending sea of thoughts, wishes, dreams and nightmares. Thoughts that go over and over in my mind, reminding me of why I find myself here, what I have done and what I can never undo.
Time is one of my greatest enemies, it is unending and unyielding. It kills me slowly. It is more painful than a flesh eating disease. I wish I could stop the planet and climb off, I wish I could start my life over, I wish I listened to my parents and my peers.
I dream of the day I am set free. I dream of seeing an open blue sky, feeling the wet green grass under my bare feet, hearing a dog bark and dressing in a different colour to the dim oppressive attire I wear, day in and day out. I dream of tasting an ice cream, a simple cheese burger, a tall bubbly cream soda and my aunt's home baked cookies.
I am caught in a nightmare, because of choices I made, wrong friends I allowed myself to be influenced by and for not respecting others.
